cognitive

thinking can be a very scary thing.
one moment u feel like u have attained the world and the next u have fallen back into hell again.

i was beginning to be very sure of my feelings now. but after reading Silver Ang's blog, i think again.

things that she said:

"Love you holding my hands.
Love how you looked at my eyes.
Love how you smile sheepishly back at me.
Love you when you say "I love you too".
Love how you pull me close and kiss my forehead.
Love how you occupied my thoughts every single minute then, and how you do so again now.
Love how patient you are with me no matter what.
Love how you would turn back from your game and grab my hand.
Love how accomodating you are to me.
Love how my hands always find yours.
Love putting my head on you.
Love the way we'll always share drinks because you know I cannot finish one by myself.
Love you too when you are angry.
Love you too when you are sad.
Love you most when you are happy with me.
I love how you loved me...


So many reasons why I love you too.
So many reasons which I never told you too..."

and one very scary thing:
"when one loves, the other doesn't, or doesn't as much; when that other one loves again, this one has moved on, or has given up... It's funny how life does these little tricks to make you realize how much some things matter."



i feel that i shdnt let this kind of thing happen to my next relationship.

i dun want to miss any opportunity to attaining happiness anymore.
i want to make sure i grab every chance to make that happiness rightfully mine.




yes my NEXT relationship.

even though there can be more reasons to why i loved. i choose to let go.

he killed the trust i had.
so i had to let go.